why i continue to love roger ebert.

read this.

more reasons to love NPH and jason segal.

the weather.

six inches over the weekend on top of what was there.
four more inches of snow tonight.
two more tomorrow.

this is the kind of weather that demands a cup of hot cocoa, a fireplace, a good book (not a legal textbook), and another body.

when do you give up on someone?

my latest quandry. when do you give up on someone you love? i am faced with this question daily. give up or face repeated heart break that is out of my control. soul aching heart break. the truth is i think i always knew the answer but was never willing to admit it - to admit what i knew, that i was in for a lifetime of heartache pending the other person's action or inaction. it took someone i'd only really known about a minute to call me on it: you won't. and i won't. truth is that you just don't give up. you love, you hope, you attempt to help - sometimes repeatedly - and then you pray if you are spiritual or religious.

problem is now i don't know what the next step is. my own soul aches. what do i do now?

singing.

if you were a fly on the wall of my day to day life, you'd encounter a slightly crazed redhead who sings - all the time. no matter where. shower, cooking, cleaning, studying... i'll bust out a song. and i love it. LOVE IT. sometimes i think life would be that much more fun and bring that much more joy if people were to randomly burst into song and dance down the street, the supermarket aisle, or in class. maybe life should be a musical.

perhaps in another lifetime it will be my profession... til then, i'll just keep dropping a tune at random throughout the day.

stuff.

this the year of the purge. purging stuff. getting rid of it. lightening the load, but in terms of the stuff i own and the load i carry on my bones everyday. there is just too much stuff out there. so, it's going, going, gone. care to join me?

dislikes.

i dislike those days, those very rare days, when i feel lonely. make no mistake that i do need my alone time. and there is a difference between alone and lonely. today, i find myself lonely. just working to make the feeling pass.