sigh.

february is maddening. too much to do. from bar application to conference to memos to oral arguments.

can't a gal get a mental health break?

why i continue to love roger ebert.

read this.

more reasons to love NPH and jason segal.

the weather.

six inches over the weekend on top of what was there.
four more inches of snow tonight.
two more tomorrow.

this is the kind of weather that demands a cup of hot cocoa, a fireplace, a good book (not a legal textbook), and another body.

when do you give up on someone?

my latest quandry. when do you give up on someone you love? i am faced with this question daily. give up or face repeated heart break that is out of my control. soul aching heart break. the truth is i think i always knew the answer but was never willing to admit it - to admit what i knew, that i was in for a lifetime of heartache pending the other person's action or inaction. it took someone i'd only really known about a minute to call me on it: you won't. and i won't. truth is that you just don't give up. you love, you hope, you attempt to help - sometimes repeatedly - and then you pray if you are spiritual or religious.

problem is now i don't know what the next step is. my own soul aches. what do i do now?

singing.

if you were a fly on the wall of my day to day life, you'd encounter a slightly crazed redhead who sings - all the time. no matter where. shower, cooking, cleaning, studying... i'll bust out a song. and i love it. LOVE IT. sometimes i think life would be that much more fun and bring that much more joy if people were to randomly burst into song and dance down the street, the supermarket aisle, or in class. maybe life should be a musical.

perhaps in another lifetime it will be my profession... til then, i'll just keep dropping a tune at random throughout the day.

stuff.

this the year of the purge. purging stuff. getting rid of it. lightening the load, but in terms of the stuff i own and the load i carry on my bones everyday. there is just too much stuff out there. so, it's going, going, gone. care to join me?

dislikes.

i dislike those days, those very rare days, when i feel lonely. make no mistake that i do need my alone time. and there is a difference between alone and lonely. today, i find myself lonely. just working to make the feeling pass.

i still love this.

anger.

sometimes i just want to rail at you with my anger.
i feel like you have abandoned me and those who love you
all for the sake of your own knowing comfort in being perpetually unhappy.
you cling to that unhappiness and use it as a cloak to shield you from the living world.
for in doing so, not only have you abandoned all of us in that living world, but also your life in that living world.
so you stay in your retreat and you live in your void.
and i find that selfish.
so selfish.

back in lansing.

drama and sadness sent me back to lansing. sometimes life throws us lemons and sometimes you just cannot make the lemonade where you are at. sometimes you need to go back home to do it.

we'll see how break plays out. even with the bad, so far, so good.

ice ice ice

from snow to ice. which is worse? i am not quite sure. still a little shaken from my spin out the other day and not thrilled about driving anywhere.

it's going to be a very long winter. VERY LONG indeed.

for the love of...

whatever higher power you may believe in, make the snowy cold mess STOP. i'm tired of it.

good times.

headed over to some bake cookies with some friends last night. good times. baked holiday cookies with mel, while the men folk snowboarded on wii. late night. tired. snowstorm has obliterated any hope of getting to the school today. cabin fever to follow, no doubt. at least i have blagojevich's press conference to entertain me at 3 pm.

oh, and here are some of my fabulous chocolate cupcakes made earlier in the day. sinfully delicious.

two words for you.

finals suck.

holiday fun

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

happy holidays.

been a crazy few months. back in it. hope you enjoyed your holidays.

three more reasons why i love roger ebert.

he may not be able to speak, but he certainly has not lost his voice.

1. On the current credit crisis and US debt.
http://rogerebert.suntimes.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20080821/REVIEWS/329/1001/reviews

2. On Sarah Palin.
http://blogs.suntimes.com/ebert/2008/10/you_didnt_ask_me_about_the_deb.html

3. On McCain's attitude in the first debate.
http://rogerebert.suntimes.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20080928/COMMENTARY/809289997/-1/RSS

read this

from gloria borger.

http://www.cnn.com/2008/POLITICS/09/30/borger.palin/index.html?iref=mpstoryview

here's what scares me

a lot of the tina fey skit was VERBATIM from palin's interview with katie couric. take a peak.



OR, take a look at the entire interview here: http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2008/09/24/eveningnews/main4476173.shtml